Mariah Carey in Out Magazine: “I’m Eternally 12 Years Old”
She has the record sales and sold out shows to prove she’s a massive force in the pop music realm, and Mariah Carey still seems to want more.
In her Out magazine cover story, the “Always Be My Baby” singer explains she’s been obsessed with Marilyn Monroe since she received a copy of Norman Mailer’s biography as a holiday present.
Carey shares, “I couldn’t have been more than 10. I was a reader as a child, believe it or not. It doesn’t go with the ditzy image, I guess. I have too many highlights!”
“Marilyn was reading Nietzsche on the set of Something’s Got to Give. Marilyn Monroe Productions was the first female-owned production company in Hollywood. She paved the way for women in Hollywood, and every single woman owes something to her for that, whether they agree with her image or not,” adds Mariah.
Regarding her upbringing, Carey notes, “As a kid I literally made this pact. There had been some sort of argument with my mom and the man she was dating at the time, and somehow I became a part of it—I was around 8 or 9 years old, and I said, ‘I’m never going to forget how it feels to be a kid, and you can’t be seen or heard.’ It’s as though your opinion doesn’t mean anything, or your feelings are not real.”
And now she can’t get enough of her own kids, Monroe and Moroccan- “Pulling them away from me is so hard. It’s unconditional love, and I never, ever thought I was going to have kids—ever.”
“I remember as a child saying I’m never going to get married; I’m never going to have kids. Here’s the thing: would I have been better off if my parents stayed married? No way. They were miserable together, but the grass is always greener. I feel I had a great childhood in some ways—and that’s an amazing thing to be able to say—but I also feel I didn’t because I was the caretaker and I still am, like it started long before I had any financing.”
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