Macklemore Opens Up About Drug & Alcohol Problems From his Past

Posted Thursday January 30, 2014 5:58 PM GMT

He's known for his award-winning singles and awesome performances, but before making it big in the music world Macklemore struggled with some inner demons.

During a new special for mtvU's "Half of Us" campaign, the "Thrift Shop" hitmaker gets candid about his drug and alcohol addiction that almost cost him his music career.

"[When I actually drank for the first time, I was by myself," Macklemore explained. "This is an indicator of who I was, from the jump. After school, by myself [at] 13 years old, maybe 14."

The 30-year-old rapper continued, "12 shots in, [my] first time ever drinking alcohol. That's not people like, 'yo keep going.' That's me, by myself, solo in the kitchen, like I can't stop. I can't turn this off. This feels good, I wanna keep going."

Macklemore also shared details about smoking weed and having issues writing rhymes because his mind would always go blank. "I've been rapping since [I was] 13 or 14, and Freshmen year of high school I realized that music and me did not work if I was under the influence."

"The thing that pulled me back was knowing that I wanted to be a musician and that if I wanted to do this I had to get sober. So I'd go a month and be sober, make a bunch of music and then fall back off and vanish for a couple months and go back and forth like that. That's how I made music for the majority of my teen years."

In regards to getting help, Macklemore said, "If it wasn't for that rehab center, I probably wouldn't have been here. In terms of recovery, it has been very important for me to be a part of a recovery community, to actively be around my people because they understand me. They get it."

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